Sidewalks

And with apprehension he thrust himself out the door and into the city night. It was approaching two in the morning and the streets were crowded with the drunk, the drugged, and the delirious headed from one door closing towards another soon to open. Those women still sober enough to manage perched high atop shoes too impractical for the sidewalks strewn with trash, glass, beer, urine, and vomit. Others splashed through the filth, their feet bare, shoes already forgotten in the basement of some frat or clutched dangling from one hand. The men listed from one side of the walk to the other; all confrontational and at one moment sincere and defensive, at the next leering, aggresive, and sarcastic; all drunk. He walked quickly, his eyes fixed on the space immediately before his feet. He judged them all as they passed, eyes sort of perpetually, mentally rolling as each group walked by.

It was convenient for his walk towards the campus to take him through these throngs of the stupid, indulgent, and drunk. It distracted him from what, upon even momentary reflection, he would consider a lapse into indulgence and weakness that was disturbing and inexcusable. He walked among these sinners en route to a girl who he hardly knew and liked less. A girl he would fuck noiselessly over the headboard of her dorm bed as her room-mate lay passed out mere feet away in an inebriated coma. Whom, after he had finished would stand up and say, "Alright, get the fuck out." And he would head back out into the night, the streets now emptied, and make his way home.